Saturday, May 23, 2015
::grad school - year one done::
Wow! I can honestly say that this last year has been a blur. School has proven to be the final straw that pushed me over the brink of that I can manage to get done. I have always had a lot of ego about what I can get done - marriage, kids, garden, animals, work full time. Why not just throw school in there too? Right? Yikes, that was a stretch. But with one year under my belt I think I am starting to get the hang of it.
First of all - I got all A's. One whole year of all A's. I didn't even get that in nursing school when I was busting my ass trying to show off how smart I was. I'd love to tell you it's because I have been killing myself studying, but it's really just been mostly good luck. I happened to have pretty easy professors and great groups to work with.
What has really given me the most anxiety about school is having a list of things that is not done. I get the schedule and I want the entire year done in the first two weeks. I can't think of anything else till its all at least written. I've lowered my personal anxiety some but pretty much forcing myself to chill out about not having assignments done four months in advance. Still, it has been weighing on my mind.
The program is three years long and the last 1.5 years is really the meat of the deal. I am excited to dive into clinicals head first. This summer semester I am tacking Pharm and expect to get mentally beat up pretty good.